While the lows got lower this time, I’m rebounding now and really appreciating good health. I’ve, fortunately, never been a sickly person, but still did not take it for granted. I always channeled my inner patient (thank you empathy) to where I knew it could flip in a moment, and it did. I think that has helped me throughout this time, knowing that this isn’t something that has happened to me, it is something that could happen to any of us at any given moment.
I read this poem and it hit me. Not because I’ve truly been in what I consider pain yet, but the connection with all other humans that have to rally and still go on, knowing that life doesn’t stop or change, just because you have to.
I’m almost through week 1 of my 4th cycle and I feel the trajectory is moving in a positive direction. I have a little more energy every day and continue to manage my nausea with my nausea decision tree and meds. I’m getting myself prepared for the possibility of having lower lows with the cumulative effect of my final two cycles of chemo. I’ll be prepared to rest and recover and let the poison do its magic.
You are tougher. You are a badass!
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